On the few occasions my mom makes me put on makeup, I end up looking exactly the same as when I started, minus a zit or two. I don’t understand.
Plus, when I do it using my makeup, just because I want to wear makeup today, she says I have ‘raccoon eyes’. The only makeup I voluntarily use (and know how to use) is mascara, eyeliner, concealer, and lipstick.
I also feel that wearing makeup every day (at least for me) is just a bid for attention. I shouldn’t need to get all “dolled-up” to get attention (like a DOLL). It makes me feel like when I wear makeup I’m just a Thing to look pretty, as if the makeup covers up my human-ness (humanity?). The makeup is a mask to hide the real me and show something nice that everyone wants to look at, like they don’t want to look at ME.
For me, makeup is a novelty accessory, to wear with certain outfits when I’m in the right mood. When I won’t be hiding or masking myself, but making myself more me. For me, makeup means a rather silly mood (unless my mom does my ENTIRE FACE up, and then it’s a grudging mood).
So if someone wants me to wear makeup every day, not only do I not have the time, energy, or money, but I feel as if you’re asking me to suppress myself so I’m easier for you to accept.